well, Baby B is 4.5 months old, and is no where near sleeping through the night.
and why is that everyone’s first question? “Is he a good sleeper?”… well, no. he’s the sweetest kid ever, but he does wake up at least once a night.
now, i understand that if he sleeps 5-ish hours straight, this is a victory, and technically “Through the night”… but he is no where near the 12-hour jags that some of our friend’s babers are blessed with.
lately -it has been more like waking up every two hours.
my first instinct was to feed him. but apparently, he’s not always hungry, and i shouldn’t be doing that… it creates bad habits.
a friend told me about this book:
i own it. and i have read the first three chapters.
but i am no where near ready to start the “sleep training”… mostly because, with the holiday, our schedules will be a bit messed up these next few days… the goal is to start it on Sunday night.
so, last night, i didn’t know exactly what to do.
on the first hand- i had gained some good knowledge from the little i have already read in the book. but, i was not anywhere near prepared to start the training, and i don’t want to start something i can’t stick with — that’s just not fair to my Baby B.
but, then around 7:15, he was rubbing his eyes, and i thought- well, here we go.
so i changed him, rocked him and read Goodnight Moon and Guess How Much I Love You, as per usual, and then tried to lay him down – and let him “put himself to sleep”, as the book suggests.
i just don’t have it in me. i may joke that i am “Dead Inside”… but that was torture.
Baby B was calling for me – and i was trying to stay away so he could teach himself such a powerful skill…. bah!
so what do i do – break completely from what the book says and do everything “wrong”… i.e. =180 degrees from what i had read….
I patted him,
i talked to him,
i stayed in the room longer than 30 seconds,
i eventually picked him up and consoled him,
i gave him a pacifier,
i fed him,
i took him back downstairs in the bright lights…
it was as if my brain said, “Spoil him, mama! This is the calm before the Sleep Training S#!+ Storm!)
and the rest of the night followed suit. he didn’t sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. i had to rock him to sleep, and then when i would put him down, he would wake up and cry.
it was a rough night for both of us.
part of me is scared that i scarred him, and he’s now afraid of being in his crib alone… oh man!
though, i am glad to say, he woke up smiling this morning…. so i didn’t fully break him.
would someone else please come to my house and work with my baby on sleep training? I don’t know if i am cut out for this!